The Dream Is Over

As I get KO'ed from the mulligan, I realize finally I am not going to make the goal of 40k this time. My screen emptys quickly as I'm writing this, I get knocked out of the myriad of sitngos and my screen looks sadder and sadder. I played ok today, truly, and as any day if I had a couple breaks go my way, I could be up a whole lot of full tilt bucks. As it stands now I'm down 2k but really can't complain. I put a lot of money on the table today and it was worth it to take the shot and to put in a grueling day which most online beasts would call standard.

I certainly did not play optimally all day, as I don't think I've ever been in the poker shape to play optimally on a day like today. Onto the good. I stayed focus all day, I kept at max games all day and I pushed it. I'm basically a champ, a poorer, aching champ.

I'm gonna skip on a specific handplay today as I'm fairly weary. I'll touch on my inner debate I'm going to be working through in the coming days. People are starting to catch on to my aggression. I'm a bit of a monkey late game, shoving incredibly wide. The first few days of it the masses of the full tilt 45 man scene didn't pick up on it. As the bad regulars realize what I'm doing I will start to be abused and called down lighter and lighter, so how do I combat that?

Well tighten up my shoving range is the easy response, but then I miss opportunity's to chip up and come into final tables without a big stack which is awful. So it's going to be an incredibly fine balancing act in the upcoming week as I try to adjust and readjust to the game changing on me. The other factor that comes into this issue is my stupid frigging jersey avatar. Every play I make at a table every donk, fish, and shark notices because I won a tournament. *Sigh*

I could blame that, accept a lower ROI and move on with my life. Or I could approach this like a poker player, how can I best turn this to my advantage. No idea at this point in time, but I know the avatar gives me certain edges, and I have the amazing opportunity to try and go find those edges. Time to adjust.